I had been feeling like my period was coming on, but it seemed weird to me because I always ovulate late and my period hardly ever shows up on time. But I just had this funny feeling. I was having weird back cramps that I only remember having after my transfer with Samantha. So while I was in Wal Mart the day before I decided to just pick up a cheap test. Just a single $4 dollar test. Because of course it was gonna be negative right and I sure as hell didn't want to spend $$$ on a digital.
I didn't even take it right when I got home. I put it under the sink and I almost forgot Tuesday morning but then I remembered! So I POAS (wow haven't used that phrase in awhile) and put it on the counter and hopped in the shower. When I got out the bathroom was all steamy but I looked down at the test. And there it was...a very faint cross...a faint positive...OMG....it's positive!!
But I managed to keep my cool. I didn't even tell Matt right away. I ended up calling my old fertility clinic to set up an appt ASAP. Because I KNEW I would need progesterone supplements right away. So after calling them I called my husband and asked him if he could come home quick, that I thought Sam had a weird rash and if he could take a look at it. Nice right? He works in town so it wasn't a big deal. So when he got home he was frantically searching our daughter for this rash when I showed him the pee stick!
Our emotions were that of excitement, SHOCK, happiness, overwhelmed and nervous! You name it, we were feeling it.
So the next day I went for my first beta. It was so strange walking back in that place. Kind of nice in a way knowing I had my beautiful girl at home, but also my heart rate definitely increased walking in there! One of my old nurses recognized me right away and gave me a huge hug! If you are wondering why I went back there and not my OB, I just knew I would be more closely monitored right away but we are going to be heading to the OB (if all goes okay) soon.
Our excitement balloon was soon deflated a little when my beta only came back at 48.2 :( I was so sad. It really made me feel hopeless like this was a big tease. But then our beta today was 143.6!!! It pretty much tripled!! What a sigh of relief! Sure it's not a supersize beta but it tripled and we are celebrating that!!!! The nurse was happy with it and my next bloodwork and appt is next fri! If all is well after that we head to the OB.
We are not far along at all...just a few weeks...as we know exactly when we conceived (our 3 year anniversary on the 4th!) But I know they count two weeks before that but I'm not buying it really because the HCG can't start until the egg if fertilized at least.
You might be wondering why I am announcing this on my blog so early, because we do have a long way to go. But I just figured that we could use PRAYERS!! So if you are the praying kind...please pray for us!!! Also, if you are friends with me on IG or Facebook...please don't say anything on there! Thank you! :)
So, there you have it. Samantha is going to be a Big Sister (God willing!). I am trying so hard to relax and just let things happen as they will and not worry about it! But you know how that goes....
If all goes well, this peanut should arrive late May/Early June I believe....
I'm just gonna keep talking to this new baby and telling him/her to stick around and grow!!!
Thank you so much for the prayers!!