G & B

So last night (at 2am) while I was up with Samantha, I caught the episode of Guilliana & Bill where they found out their IVF worked. Which started a full blown sob-fest. I was just so happy for them. And it brought back all the emotions we felt the day we got the news that our IVF worked. It was interesting to watch them preparing the embryos too and thinking that's how Samantha started out and her two brothers or sisters. Watching all this brought back everything of how we did transfer 3 babies. Two took. One made it to a live birth. Our sweet girl Samantha. Such a miracle. Seriously. It also got me thinking about a second child. A group of friends I know from hs have a "secret" group page where we can vent about anything and everything. But mostly it's Mommies venting and discussing. The other day the topic got brought up of having more kids. Everyone was discussing if and when they decided to have a second/third child. My initial feeling throughout my whole (horrible) pregnancy was that I just couldn't imagine having such a tough pregnancy again. And then our baby girl was born premature. Which definitely made me feel like this was it for us. One child. We were done. Not to mention how hard it was to conceive her. But looking at her now I just have a feeling she won't be our only child. That someday she might have a sibling. It honestly scares me to death to go through such an experience again that wasn't all that pleasant the first time. In a way I feel like we would be "tempting fate" or whatever the expression is. We were advised anyways by the doctors to wait 18mths after a premature birth to even try again. I guess this is to let the uterus heal completely? But I guess what I'm saying is that having a second isn't completely off the table. It's a possibility. We do have 4 frostie babies and come August we have to start paying for the clinic to keep them frozen. I guess time will tell what will happen. For now I just want to enjoy my baby girl and watch her grow!

I watched The Happiest Baby on the Block dvd the other day. And that night I tried some of the techniques out. And they worked! The first time that is. I tried again in the middle of the night when she was screaming and it didn't work. But I'm just going to keep at it. I've been trying to swaddle her more even though she seems to hate it. The doctor also had us trying a 1/2 a teaspoon of rice cereal in her 11pm bottle for a few days to help with reflux but it didn't really work. So now she is on Zantac twice a day which we just started last night. She did seem to have somewhat of a better night last night! Although this morning she seemed more cranky. I'm hoping after a few days the zantac will make a big difference!

Tomorrow is a big day...it's Samantha's due date!!!