Monday, October 29, 2012
Mommy's Little Witch
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| Boo! |
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| Happy witch! |
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| Tired witch.... |
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| Witch be chillin' |
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| Witch way to the candy stash? Anyone know? |
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
Sahmantha
SAHM..."Stay-at-home-Mom"
My friend Carlia over at nest building 101 did a post the other day on what she has learned from being a SAHM. As having been a (temporary...still job searching!) SAHM myself for the last 7 months, I could relate...
The top 5 things I have learned from being a SAHM (or just becoming a Mom in general!):
My friend Carlia over at nest building 101 did a post the other day on what she has learned from being a SAHM. As having been a (temporary...still job searching!) SAHM myself for the last 7 months, I could relate...
The top 5 things I have learned from being a SAHM (or just becoming a Mom in general!):
- It's hard. And some days are really hard. Not every day is sunshine and roses. These are the days when I am exhausted from very little sleep, or she's being super fussy, or I'm stressing about money or even sometimes missing adult interaction. I would seriously like to punch in the face anyone who thinks SAHM's just sit around and watch TV or that they "have it easy." No matter how much you love your child, everyone needs a little break. And SAHM's don't get them. They are on top of things 24/7.
- Even though financially it has been tough with me being home, it has also been a blessing. To not have missed any moments with my sweet girl who I waited and wished for, has been nothing short of amazing! I love being with her! Each smile or laugh I get from her, erases one tough moment. It crushes my heart to think about her being in daycare and being away from her everyday, but unfortunately we can't afford to do that right now. So the job search has been in full swing.
- I have had to learned that my house is going to be messy. And that's that. Not "dirty" but just a little messy. I used to keep this place spotless and so organized and after awhile of trying to keep that up with a little one, I realized it's just not going to happen! And that's okay. I usually set one goal a day. Like "Clean off the dining room table today, tomorrow mop the floor."
- My body. I am in full frump mode. You know it's bad when your yoga pants (which haven't see any yoga, ever.) are starting to get holes in them. My body is a mess, my hair is a mess and my wardrobe in a mess. Saturday I am getting my hair cut and colored (something different and I'm nervous) and soon I want to get back on WW. I try to give myself a break because I know my body has been through hell in the past few years. From IF meds, surgery, IVF, a rough pregnancy and a c-section! If my body could talk it was say "Leaveee me alone!!" But I need to start making time for myself and taking care of ME. My point is that I've learned that my body will probably never be the same. But I just want to get healthy.
- I've learned that it is possible to do pretty much anything one handed. I'm surprised I'm not super skinny from just all the contortionist type moves I do on a daily basis, with Sam in one arm and multi-tasking with the other!
I had taken Sam to an appointment a few weeks ago and the guy at the desk who was doing our paperwork asked me a few questions. One of them was "Do you work outside the home?" I LOVED the way this guy worded this, instead of "Do you work?" Women who are at home with their kids work just as hard as women who work outside of the home. Bottom line, we women are rock stars. We seriously kick ass at all we do. Whether your kid is in daycare or your kid is at home with you, we all deserve a round of applause. Seriously :)
I saw this in the November issue of Real Simple magazine and loved it!
"$112,962....the yearly salary a 2012 stay-at-home Mom would earn (that is, if she were paid), as determined by the career-advice website Salary.com. The income was calculated by combining the average wages, plus overtime, for the jobs as a Mom typically performs, including laundress, janitor, driver, cook, facilities manager, psychologist, and CEO (of the household). The results also showed that the average stay-at-home Mom works a grueling 94.7-hour week and would make an average of $22.94 an hour."
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
Thursday, October 11, 2012
I peed on a stick
Yes I did....
"Why" you ask? Did I think I was pregnant or something? Well, no not really. But I just had to rule it out.
For the past few weeks I have been SUPER exhausted, SUPER hungry and SUPER emotional. Seriously, barely can keep my eyes open, a bottom-less pit of a stomach and crying over anything that is even slightly tear provoking. Something happy or sad on TV? Sobbing. Looking at my sweet girl's face? Sobbing. So, even though it wasn't really possible that I could be pregnant, because of logistics, I just had to make sure! I bought a cheap dollar store test and there I was peeing on a stick again...
Of course, it was negative. I was not surprised at all. I really only took the test in case of the 1/% freak chance I was pregnant and would need to stop drinking the massive amounts of pumpkin coffee and Mtn Dew I've beeninhaling drinking. A girl's gotta stay awake, ya know. Napping while your 7 month old is awake is extremely frowned upon.
The point of this post is that the negative test? It still hurt. I am forever haunted by the many sticks I peed on that always turned up negative. Except, the two sticks (that I still have somewhere...don't judge) that were positive. The first one from 2009 with the baby we lost and Samantha's test. Which I ran to the bathroom and took after the clinic called with the good news! I just HAD to see "Pregnant" on the stick.
All those sad feelings from struggling with infertility came flooding back. It was like they never left. Even when I have my miracle girl! It still hurts.
Now, let me just say that we are NOT ready for another child. Do we eventually want one more? Yes please! :) However, we want to wait awhile before jumping back into it. I'm still not healed yet emotionally from all the chaos of Sam's birth. The rough pregnancy with alllll the scares! The premature birth! My poor girl struggling in the NICU. And my body is not ready. The doctor told us that mother's of preemie's should wait 18 months before trying again to let everything heal properly. Body and mind. And I really want to lose a ton of weight and get healthy before we have another baby. Plus, our financial situation is the greatest right now. I am still job searching.
Would we do our best and welcome another baby before we are ready if somehow that happened? Of course. But really, we are just not ready at all.
Still, that negative test made me sad for just a moment. It was a strange feeling. Knowing that we are not ready but yet would welcome a brother or sister for Samantha. What I've learned is that life happens when you are busy making other plans. It's really not up to us. We do have four embryos frozen and that's a topic for a whole different post!
And this is so random, but my friend J sent me a FB message this morning saying she had a dream about me last night that I was pregnant again!! Crazy! I then told her how that was so weird because I just took a test this past weekend.
So, when will infertility not hurt? Even after I've had a baby. I'm sure I'm not alone in these feelings.
I guess it's just plain old hormones making me feel like this the past few weeks! And AF should be arriving soon.
I think I'll steer clear of buying pregnancy tests from here on out. They just make me sad! The process of it. Buying them, taking the test, and seeing a negative. Maybe sometime next year will we seriously start trying for baby #2.
Infertility is a life long struggle. Even post baby.
Lesson learned.
"Why" you ask? Did I think I was pregnant or something? Well, no not really. But I just had to rule it out.
For the past few weeks I have been SUPER exhausted, SUPER hungry and SUPER emotional. Seriously, barely can keep my eyes open, a bottom-less pit of a stomach and crying over anything that is even slightly tear provoking. Something happy or sad on TV? Sobbing. Looking at my sweet girl's face? Sobbing. So, even though it wasn't really possible that I could be pregnant, because of logistics, I just had to make sure! I bought a cheap dollar store test and there I was peeing on a stick again...
Of course, it was negative. I was not surprised at all. I really only took the test in case of the 1/% freak chance I was pregnant and would need to stop drinking the massive amounts of pumpkin coffee and Mtn Dew I've been
The point of this post is that the negative test? It still hurt. I am forever haunted by the many sticks I peed on that always turned up negative. Except, the two sticks (that I still have somewhere...don't judge) that were positive. The first one from 2009 with the baby we lost and Samantha's test. Which I ran to the bathroom and took after the clinic called with the good news! I just HAD to see "Pregnant" on the stick.
All those sad feelings from struggling with infertility came flooding back. It was like they never left. Even when I have my miracle girl! It still hurts.
Now, let me just say that we are NOT ready for another child. Do we eventually want one more? Yes please! :) However, we want to wait awhile before jumping back into it. I'm still not healed yet emotionally from all the chaos of Sam's birth. The rough pregnancy with alllll the scares! The premature birth! My poor girl struggling in the NICU. And my body is not ready. The doctor told us that mother's of preemie's should wait 18 months before trying again to let everything heal properly. Body and mind. And I really want to lose a ton of weight and get healthy before we have another baby. Plus, our financial situation is the greatest right now. I am still job searching.
Would we do our best and welcome another baby before we are ready if somehow that happened? Of course. But really, we are just not ready at all.
Still, that negative test made me sad for just a moment. It was a strange feeling. Knowing that we are not ready but yet would welcome a brother or sister for Samantha. What I've learned is that life happens when you are busy making other plans. It's really not up to us. We do have four embryos frozen and that's a topic for a whole different post!
And this is so random, but my friend J sent me a FB message this morning saying she had a dream about me last night that I was pregnant again!! Crazy! I then told her how that was so weird because I just took a test this past weekend.
So, when will infertility not hurt? Even after I've had a baby. I'm sure I'm not alone in these feelings.
I guess it's just plain old hormones making me feel like this the past few weeks! And AF should be arriving soon.
I think I'll steer clear of buying pregnancy tests from here on out. They just make me sad! The process of it. Buying them, taking the test, and seeing a negative. Maybe sometime next year will we seriously start trying for baby #2.
Infertility is a life long struggle. Even post baby.
Lesson learned.
Wednesday, October 10, 2012
I Love You a Bushel and a Peck
You know the song, right? Samantha's Nana sings this to her a lot :) Seemed like the perfect title for a picture post of baby girl's very first apple picking adventure! I don't think Samantha was a fan of how cold it was that day! Ohhh my sweet girl, wait till winter hits!!!
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| My pretty girl wearing the fleece and hat E from Manymanymoons gave her! |
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| Can I get this in the form of a sauce, please? Thanks. |
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| A pumpkin amongst pumpkins. She looks so big here! Please make it stop. |
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| The "Big Apple" |
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| Mommy's loves photo editing sites. |
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| I think I'll take this one... |
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| Me and my girl |
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| Filling up our 1/2 bushel bag and Daddy was calling the big apples we'd find "lunkers." |
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| Apple pie that Mommy and Daddy worked on together. Yes, it took two of us.... |
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| Peanut Princess picked a punkin.' Say that 5 times fast... |
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| Hangin' with Daddy. Literally. |
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| "I'll take this one, Mom" |
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| Daddy and his princess |
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| Oh my Apples! |
Monday, October 8, 2012
7 months!!!
Hi!
I'm back and another month older! Can you believe it? I know, I know. The Mommies and Daddies blink and us babies get bigger and bigger and bigger. Although, I'm still in the "peanut" category :) It's been a great month! Mommy and Daddy say that I'm becoming this "little person." I've been much happier in general (still not a fan of the car though!) but overall life is pretty sweet right now. I've been practicing sitting up on my own. Phewww, it's a lot of work people. I almosssttt have it and any time my parents try and hold me (horizontal) I use all my muscles and sit myself up! I can go about ten seconds unassisted but then I do a face plant. Well, Momma catches me before that happens. It usually goes something like this in my head...
"Ohhh yes! I'm sitting up! I'm sitting up! I've got this!" (slowly tipping over)
"Whoooa...whooooaaa...going down...oh no! (Momma catches me)
"Phew! Thanks Mom, that was close!"
I'll get there. I know I'm gonna be a champ at walking! I love to stand up with my strong little legs! And lately I have started putting one foot in front of the other. The rents think I'm a genius when I do this.
I have a boyfriend. His name is Elmo. This guy makes me smile so big! I am going to marry Elmo someday.
Here is a current list of my likes and dislikes...
Likes
-Pears, carrots, peaches and sweet potatoes! Those are my favorite jar foods so far.
-I'm drinking 3-6 oz of Prosobee (soy) formula about every 3 hours. And I eat jar foods twice a day!
-I love being carried around in my "back(chest)pack." I love to face out and my Dad loves carrying me around in it!
-As I mentioned earlier, ELMO. Sesame Street is general is pretty cool. Whenever Elmo comes on I kick my feet really fast with excitement!
-I love being outside.
-And I love hearing my own voice! Screeching is fun!
-I love to pick up toys, bat at toys, and put toys in my mouth! It's great.
-Bath time! Or as I like to call it "Spa" time. I think once I can sit up on my own it will be even more fun to splash in the water!
-Whenever I'm really tired I put a hand over my face. This cute little move makes hearts melt.
-My Dad does this funny thing with his voice. He says (in a high squeaky voice) "Did you go pee-pees??" And I smile and giggle like crazy! It's just so funny. He's a riot.
-I love rocking and cuddling with Mom in the rocking chair before bed. Sometimes she sings or reads to me. I like this gal. She's always there for me.
-I recently started liking a lovie to cuddle with. Daddy gets freaked out that I'm going to cover my face with it, but mommy keeps a good eye on me and plus I just like the feel of something soft on my cheek when I'm trying to sleep or sad.
-Peek a boo! Have you heard of this little game?? It's awesome. You should try it.
-Still in size 2 diapers! Might have to move to 3 soon!
-Wearing a variety of sizes! Still fit in Newborn/Size 1 shoes. Clothes (depending on brand) can go anywhere from 3 months to 6-9 months! I'm all over the chart. And of course, all my pants are super long. Just like my Momma :) Hats. I'm running out of hats! My head is huge I tell ya!!!
Dislikes
-Car rides. Still not fun. I think it's just I don't like being strapped down to something. I like to be FREEEEE!
-Naps. Getting better with naps but most of the time I still nap like a cat.
-My sleep schedule was pretty good for awhile, but something's up with me because lately I've been way off! I think Mommy is trying this cry it out thing but I'm not all that crazy about it.
-My sore gums :( It's happening. I am teething.
-Strangers. Stranger anxiety seemed to be in full effect. But as of the last few days, I'm becoming a bit of a social butterfly. I'm learning not (everyone) is scary :) Some people are and smell funny too. But most people are friendly and say sweet things about me.
Check out the candy corn photo shoot....
And guess where we are going today? Apple and pumpkin picking! My first time! I am so excited :) What a great way to celebrate 7 months. You think they'll let me eat a cider donut? Yeah, probably not. Bummer.
See ya next month!
~Samantha
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I'm back and another month older! Can you believe it? I know, I know. The Mommies and Daddies blink and us babies get bigger and bigger and bigger. Although, I'm still in the "peanut" category :) It's been a great month! Mommy and Daddy say that I'm becoming this "little person." I've been much happier in general (still not a fan of the car though!) but overall life is pretty sweet right now. I've been practicing sitting up on my own. Phewww, it's a lot of work people. I almosssttt have it and any time my parents try and hold me (horizontal) I use all my muscles and sit myself up! I can go about ten seconds unassisted but then I do a face plant. Well, Momma catches me before that happens. It usually goes something like this in my head...
"Ohhh yes! I'm sitting up! I'm sitting up! I've got this!" (slowly tipping over)
"Whoooa...whooooaaa...going down...oh no! (Momma catches me)
"Phew! Thanks Mom, that was close!"
I'll get there. I know I'm gonna be a champ at walking! I love to stand up with my strong little legs! And lately I have started putting one foot in front of the other. The rents think I'm a genius when I do this.
I have a boyfriend. His name is Elmo. This guy makes me smile so big! I am going to marry Elmo someday.
Here is a current list of my likes and dislikes...
Likes
-Pears, carrots, peaches and sweet potatoes! Those are my favorite jar foods so far.
-I'm drinking 3-6 oz of Prosobee (soy) formula about every 3 hours. And I eat jar foods twice a day!
-I love being carried around in my "back(chest)pack." I love to face out and my Dad loves carrying me around in it!
-As I mentioned earlier, ELMO. Sesame Street is general is pretty cool. Whenever Elmo comes on I kick my feet really fast with excitement!
-I love being outside.
-And I love hearing my own voice! Screeching is fun!
-I love to pick up toys, bat at toys, and put toys in my mouth! It's great.
-Bath time! Or as I like to call it "Spa" time. I think once I can sit up on my own it will be even more fun to splash in the water!
-Whenever I'm really tired I put a hand over my face. This cute little move makes hearts melt.
-My Dad does this funny thing with his voice. He says (in a high squeaky voice) "Did you go pee-pees??" And I smile and giggle like crazy! It's just so funny. He's a riot.
-I love rocking and cuddling with Mom in the rocking chair before bed. Sometimes she sings or reads to me. I like this gal. She's always there for me.
-I recently started liking a lovie to cuddle with. Daddy gets freaked out that I'm going to cover my face with it, but mommy keeps a good eye on me and plus I just like the feel of something soft on my cheek when I'm trying to sleep or sad.
-Peek a boo! Have you heard of this little game?? It's awesome. You should try it.
-Still in size 2 diapers! Might have to move to 3 soon!
-Wearing a variety of sizes! Still fit in Newborn/Size 1 shoes. Clothes (depending on brand) can go anywhere from 3 months to 6-9 months! I'm all over the chart. And of course, all my pants are super long. Just like my Momma :) Hats. I'm running out of hats! My head is huge I tell ya!!!
Dislikes
-Car rides. Still not fun. I think it's just I don't like being strapped down to something. I like to be FREEEEE!
-Naps. Getting better with naps but most of the time I still nap like a cat.
-My sleep schedule was pretty good for awhile, but something's up with me because lately I've been way off! I think Mommy is trying this cry it out thing but I'm not all that crazy about it.
-My sore gums :( It's happening. I am teething.
-Strangers. Stranger anxiety seemed to be in full effect. But as of the last few days, I'm becoming a bit of a social butterfly. I'm learning not (everyone) is scary :) Some people are and smell funny too. But most people are friendly and say sweet things about me.
Check out the candy corn photo shoot....
And guess where we are going today? Apple and pumpkin picking! My first time! I am so excited :) What a great way to celebrate 7 months. You think they'll let me eat a cider donut? Yeah, probably not. Bummer.
See ya next month!
~Samantha
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