I am miserable today girls. Just feeling so sad and defeated. "Why" you say? Well as you probably know, this post was supposed to be a happy one. Today was supposed to be one of the most special days of our lives. And let me say first that the baby and I are okay. In case any of you were thinking the worst. But today was supposed to be our anatomy scan and gender reveal. A day that I've been waiting 5 months for. No scratch that, I've been waiting for this day MY ENTIRE LIFE!
I'll start from the beginning. Which begins last night pretty much. I had trouble sleeping last night. I think I was just really excited and couldn't turn my mind off. But once I did get to sleep (around one) I woke up frequently. Because of my new pregnancy "side effect." LOUD SNORING! I've never really snored before. But last night I was waking up both myself and my husband. It was horrible! And then I had set my alarm for around 4:30 because I didn't want to rush getting ready and I wanted to make sure we had enough time to get to our appointment. So basically I am super tired right now and when I'm finished with this post, a nap will commence.
Our appointment was for 8:30 am. It takes us about 20 minutes to get to the OB office. We left the house at 7:45. Plentyyyy of time to get there. In fact, we should have ended up getting there early (as we always do!). And it even left a little extra time in case we ran into "traffic." Which pretty much never happens on the route we take there. We had to take two cars because unfortunately my husband had to go to work after our appointment. So I was following him.
I guess I'll cut to the chase, that we ran into traffic today. MAJOR TRAFFIC. A couple fender benders and I believe there was construction going on because two lanes were closed. It was insane. We were literally crawling along at 5 miles and hour and I started freaking out as I was watching the clock get closer and closer to 8:30. Finally, as we were at a stand still, I called the office and told them " I was so sorry but that we were on our way, we're stuck in horrible traffic." The receptionist then proceeded to tell me " Ok but if you aren't here soon we are going to have to reschedule because the u/s tech is booked up today." Now I start really freaking out. Tears and everything. I was practically begging her to not cancel it! I hung up and called my husband who then called the office himself and begged them also. As we are about two minutes away from the office, I get a call from the them. "I'm sorry we are going to have to cancel your appointment." Insert Sarah REALLY freaking out. I didn't even care. Full blown crying...begging..."Please I've waited 5 months for this day." Nope. Nothing. They had to cancel. My husband was furious. I was furious and sad. It was horrible. They did say they could get us in tomorrow morning. That was their "consolation prize."
Now, I know some of you are thinking, "Well that's not bad, at least they can get you in tomorrow! At least you are pregnant dammit!" And I get that. Yes, we are glad we don't have to wait another week or month. But I have to tell you we are so unhappy with how things went this morning with them, that we are just angry! I know it's just one more day of waiting. But after you've been hoping and praying for this day to come for so long, having something so unlucky like this happen is AWFUL. And not to mention it's not easy for my husband to time off from work. We weren't sure if he was even going to be able to come with me tomorrow! But he is after all after rearranging some stuff at work, thank goodness.
What we're so mad about is that at almost every appointment we have at the OB, we always have to wait almost an hour to be seen! We always are on time or arrive early. And we always wait patiently during those hours, because we know they are taking their time with each patient. I appreciate that, because I do like that they take their time with us when it's our turn. Now, why do we have to wait patiently over an hour but then when a couple really needs break, when they got stuck in traffic and it's such a BIG appointment, why can't they help us out a little? And maybe they need to loosen up their u/s schedule instead of having back to back appointments??? It's hard to explain I guess the frustration we are feeling about this. And we had planned to give the Doctor an earful about it tomorrow. But now, we don't get to see the doctor tomorrow, we are seeing an NP instead. One of the NP's I'm not really crazy about. So we were pissed about that too. We were supposed to meet the doctor today.
We had even pulled into the OB's office lot. We were there! And still they wouldn't shift anything for us. My husband actually went up to the office, while I sat in the car and cried., and he asked them again if there was anything they could do. He told them we would wait two hours if we had to. But they said no, and looked at him like he was nuts. Ugh.
Then this afternoon my mom came with me downtown to the SS office. I needed to get my name changed on my ss card.Yes, I'm a slacker and waited this long. The room was packed with people and we had to wait and hour or so. We even got to see a show. Two crazy people starting fighting with each other and the cops had to get involved! And they call my number and I get up there, but I only have a copy of my marriage license, not one with a seal. So, yup, they wouldn't do it! Complete waste of time.
It's just one of those days where I feel like a punching bag. So I'm sorry friends, I know some of you were so excited for us to find out! Tomorrow will be take two....
Now, it's time to nap. I might sleep through until tomorrow morning! That's how tired I feel.