Hello, Belly Shot.

And I'm not talking about the fun kind, with tequila and limes...

I had my third monitoring appointment on Friday. I raced over to the office on my lunch break (with "Coming Around Again" playing in the car) for another ultrasound and bloodwork. I have one big fat follie growing at 19. ONLY ONE. Which was kind of a bummer, but like the tech said " You only need one for it to happen." I know this is true, but it would've been nice to have a few on back up. She also said my lining was a little thicker, but not super thick. So, this was all positive news, but just a small dose of it. One follie and a lining that's so-so. But I'll take that over bad news. She also said that I needed to administer the Ovidrel shot between 6-9 that evening. We had plans to go to a graduation party during that time, so we had to figure out how we were going to work the shot in. I wanted to have my mom give me the shot, because she's a nurse. And I wanted Matt to watch so that in the future (If!!) we need to do this again, he can give the shot. We rushed over to my parent's house, before party and my mom gave me the shot. I was pretty anxious about it because I hate needles, never had one given to me in the stomach and I really really want this to work. But it wasn't that bad, didn't hurt as much as I thought. Although, I'm not sure if it was the hormones or not, but I was an emotional mess the rest of the night...

We went to the grad party which was fun but overwhelming too. I'm not all that social lately, and being around large groups of people is hard for me. I was really tired too. I had to work at 6:30 in the morning that day, so I was already exhausted. Throw in all the emotions with the doctor visit and the stomach shot and the day did me in. We also received bad news this week that my stepdad's best friend (the person who was going to marry us) is in the hospital in coma and not doing well at all. It's really sad.When we got home from the party I think I had my first ever real anxiety attack. I couldn't catch my breath, felt like an elephant was on my chest and the tears just kept coming. Matt was great in helping me calm down and relax. I really don't know what I'd do without him...

So, the instructions I received from the doctor's office were to keep up with my prenatal vitamins and baby aspirin, and to start progesterone on Monday. Oh, and that we had "business to take care of" as the tech put it...:)

Our HCG bloodwork is on July 19th. Praying and hoping that there isn't a "next time." If for some reason, this cycle doesn't work I think we are going to take a break next month. The co-pays are adding up from this cycle and we are going to have to save every penny before the wedding. Plus, in September I'll be on Matt's insurance, which is better than mine, so that will work out nicely.

What am I saying?! There won't have to be a next time. Because this is it. I feel it. I'm hoping for it. I'm praying for it.

What a busy weekend. Today was my Mom's birthday! Happy Birthday Mom! My stepdad made a delicious dinner and we got to visit with my aunt and nana, too. Tomorrow is Rory's (my stepbro's daughter) Christening and party. Plus, it's the 4th of July!!

Goodnight everyone and goodnight babymaker. Please work your magic.