Sunday, April 3, 2011

Sadurday

I had a rough weekend. Rough as in, sad. On Saturday I pretty much had a nervous breakdown. I think it's a mix of everything coming down on me at once. Too much stress and not enough stress relief. Mostly infertility and money/work related, but those things are enough to make a girl bat shit crazy. So, on Saturday I had a complete tear fest. Haven't had one of those in awhile, but I knew it was coming. Like I said, too much stress and not enough stress relief. My husband and I wanted to take a day trip somewhere, but he was offered some side work and we just cant turn that down right now. It's weird because I left the RE appointment on Friday, very hopeful...

But then it just all came crashing back down. I'm doing a little better today. I've come to the conlusion that I pretty much need to take all the unecessary stresses out of my life. My priorities are going to work, getting our financial situation on track, and beating infertility. That's all that I need to focus on right now. Everything else (besides family and friends) means nada. I have to what is best for me and not feel guilty about it...

Our laptop is pretty much shot. And we can't afford to fix it or get a new one anytime soon. So, please forgive me if I'm slow to catch up on all your blogs. I have to use my desktop and (not even joking) it takes about 15 minutes to load a page :( So bummed about this.

A friend of mine posted this on FB today...

"God answer prayers in three ways. God says yes and gives what you want. God says no and gives you something better. God says wait and gives you the best..."

Makes you wish there was a Blogger "Like" button, huh? :)

8 comments:

Jenny said...

the summer before my IVF cycle I just decided to say a big F-U to the stress of IF and the pain of endo. I went out drinking with friends (something I didn't do much since college days), I joined a softball team, I spent lazy days with DH doing absolutely nothing...I just switched it all off and "pretended" it didn't exist or bother me, just for a little while. I am glad to say it was all worth it...I was happier than I'd been in years.
Do it...focus on only the important issues right now and bring some happy into your life!

Josey said...

LIKE indeed. ;)

Sometimes those tear fest are needed - hoping you feel better now!

Faith said...

Take the time you need to focus your energy - no guilt in that at all! We all have to do that, and you'll find you will do it A LOT when you become a mom, so this is practice:). SO many things have to fall off your plate, and that's ok!

As for the quote, I can see how God did all 3 of those things on my infertility journey, and I'm so grateful now...never thought I'd say that...you will too one day...hang in there, girl.

beauty and insanity wrapped into one said...

just be sure to take care of yourself and enjoy life... stress is not good for anyone...good things are bound to come your way!!!! youve been waiting long enough. never give up on hope!

Amber said...

I actually ended a couple of my high-maintenance friendships during my IF battles. They just weren't worth my time and energy anymore. You have to put yourself first!

Amanda said...

Aww, I'm so sorry you had one of those weekends Sarah. I think we've all been there. It seems to come out of nowhere, when we're least expecting it too.

Good for you for putting your priorities first. I hope this renewed focus helps you to relieve some stress. Have you tried the Circle+Bloom meditations? I find they really help me destress after a long day...

I love that quote. I keep meaning to put all these quotes that I read onto a page where I can read them when I want. I should start today :)

Sailor's Sweetheart said...

Love the quote! :)

I'm so sorry you had a bad weekend. I can totally relate to your pain! Sometimes we just need to let it all out, and then pick up the pieces and move on. Hopefully you and your hubby can get away soon!

amiracle4us said...

Love all of this (except your sadness). I think melt downs are so helpful to just 'get it out'. I love the quote too!