Today was my appointment with the RE. The last time I saw the actual doctor was almost a year ago. My mom came with me for support and to ask questions and take notes for the moments went my mind went blank. I brought a list of questions with me and got the answers I needed. Well, actually he just confirmed all the things I was already thinking and I guess that's all I needed. Someone to say "Why yes Sarah, that's a good plan."
The doctor was running a bit behind, but the nurse brought us into the small "follow up talk" office. Or as some like to call it, the "WTF (what the f***) office." There was a pad on the table with a diagram of the reproductive organs. Both my mom and I were like "Hmmmm, so the egg actually has to make a jump to the fallopian tubes." Didn't realize this. Not only do I have to produce eggs each month, but they apparently have to be track stars too. We were getting a little silly while we were waiting and we decided the diagram kind of looked like a ram. So my mom started drawing eyes and a smile on it. I meant to take a picture of it and post it on here, but I forgot to take it from my mom's car. My mom and I are never short on laughs when we are together and I love that.
When the doctor finally came in, I was ready to fire off my questions. I noticed right away that he didnt have my file with him and was a little concerned that he didn't bother to even look at it. But I was wrong. He started talking about my history and past treatments, and I relaxed a bit. He's kind of nerdy, my doctor, but super smart. And from what I learned today, he has a pretty good sense of humor too. He made a couple of funny jokes while explaining things to us. But the one that stood out in my mind (and made my mom and I "lol") was when he was describing the quality of eggs and pre-mature eggs. He said something like " No one wants a dumb baby, life is hard enough as it is." Ha!
I really trust this doctor. The plan we came up with for the next cycle (which should start late next week or the week after)is injectible cycle #2 with IUI #3. So it will be Bravelle, Lupron, Estrace, trigger and progesterone. If that cycle doesn't work, we are strongly considering a larascopy (sp?). Of course this is all pending on whether or not this natural cycle produced a little miracle!
Heard my theme song again today :)
At work today, my friend and I were trying to play April Fool's jokes on each other. We were failing miserably, UNTIL she got me. She came into the classroom and said we were all getting a bonus check at the end of the month. We got one last fall, because the hospital we work for hasn't given anyone a raise in about 3 years. I didn't believe her at first, but then after awhile I did! Then she dropped the bomb that she was joking. I was so bummed, I need that money! It's not a big check, but hey, anything helps! So after my appointment today I saw that she texted me. She said " You are not going to believe this, but after you left we found out that we ARE getting bonus checks this month!" Woo-hoo! I'm so psyched about this, because this bonus check might pay for the injectible cycle :) Money I don't have yet, already gone...but for good reason!
I am starting to get that hopeful and excited feeling I had with the first injectible cycle. Third IUI is a charm?? :) But there's a small part of me scared out of my mind to get another crushing BFN after awful belly shots, endless appointments and an empty wallet...
This time around my husband is going to be giving me the shots. Only when pigs fly will I give them to myself. I think you girls who do them yourselves are SO friggin brave! We live farther away from my parents now, so having my mom who's a nurse come give them to me, really isnt going to work this time. So, my husband is going to have to torture me instead...
I have to go now, because it's game time girls! GO METS!!! :)