Peace of Cake

In honor of NIAW (National Infertility Awareness Week) I went and got myself an IUI #3 :) Totally planned it that way. Ha. Not so much.

This morning was a "peace" of cake.

It went so well. And very, very different. This whole cycle was different. I'm going to take that as a good thing. No, a great thing.

Last night my husband brought me home roses and a card because he felt so bad about not being able to be with me for the IUI. He left for Syracuse this morning for an over-nighter with work. But not before handing over the "goods." ha!

After driving through a monsoon on the way to the clinic, I was so thankful to have just arrived in one piece and to have the "goods" safe and sound. I had visions of getting into a fender bender or my car breaking down or a cop pulling me over. I actually played out the convo between me and the cop in my head. " Um, sir? Can you please hurry it up with that ticket? I've got sperm in this bag that needs to get to the clinic ASAFP!" (As soon as f****** possible). But thankfully none of those scenarios occurred...

Now, is it a good thing or a bad thing if the nurses and front desk people know you by name?? I guess it's kind of nice, but then again it must mean I am there wayyyy too much :) As I was sitting and waiting, a cute little toddler was running around the whole place. She was super cute and I chatted with her a bit. But I was like is this for real? I'm pretty sure that when I have a child and if I need further help with conceiving a second child...I will not be bringing my child there. I guess just out of respect for all the women and men there who are desperately trying to have a baby. It's just we go through so much, I feel like it's the one place that should be free of babies and toddlers all up in your face. I know some of you might think Im horrible for saying that, but it's just how I feel. I mean picture this, a cute little toddler running around the waiting room, when you've just learned your cycle failed. Or that you miscarried. It's a difficult situation, to learn the worst news of your life and walk out of the exam room to a room full of kids. And I know some people like to bring their babies back to the clinic to show the doctors and thank them. But I think when that day comes for me, I'm going to send a beautiful picture and thank you note instead.

Anyways, back to my IUI story. Usually, I sit on the same side of waiting room every time. But today I sat on the other side on one of the comfy couches. There are two doors to baby making land. And I was thinking today, that I've never been through the "other" door to the "other" side. I've always assumed that was for IVF and all the "bigger" procedures. All the sudden the door opens and a nurse wearing a scrub hat (or operating type hat) calls my name. What? Me? Through that door? To that side? I was so shocked I almost stumbled over the footrest getting up :) My last two IUI's had been done in regular "everyday" exam rooms. The nurse was so nice and she brought me back to this bigger room that looked more like a mini operating room. Much different looking that the "everyday" rooms. I asked her if it was the retrieval room and she said they did transfers in there. I immediately imagined happy couples watching their embryos being transferred on the screen. But today I was just getting an IUI. A life changing IUI. And so she got started. My husbands sample was "fabulous" she said. And I have to say it was the best IUI I've had. Very quick, not too much discomfort and when she left me there to rest for a bit they had calming music playing. Something the other side doesn't have (besides in the bathrooms). I really could have fallen asleep. She had dimmed the lights, the music was playing and I just kept visualizing the conception of our baby! Sounds kind of weirdo, but I was. It was just so peaceful.

I have today off from work and I plan to do absolutely nothing but rest and let my body do the work! No cleaning, no laundry, nothing. Just taking it easy and hoping for the best :) It's stormy here, so its the perfect day to do that.

May 12th is beta day. A few days after Mother's Day. Hmm. :)