I'm choosing to believe.
I'm choosing to believe that this may have actually worked. That next Thursday I will have good news to share. Of course, there are some minutes in my day spent second guessing things. But most of the minutes in my day have been spent excited at the possibility of everything finally coming full circle...
Things have been happening. Little things. Little signs e-v-e-r-y-w-h-e-r-e. And if I typed them all out they might seem silly to some people. But to me they have been so encouraging. And I think I'll keep them to myself :)
Although, I'll share the latest with you...
My husband told me tonight that the weirdest thing happened to him. Last night he had a dream. And to many of us, there's nothing weird about having a dream. They happen. But my husband says he rarely dreams, or if he does, he NEVER remembers them. He said that last night he dreamed that I woke him up in the middle of the night and told him I was pregnant with twins. And this morning he was so confused as to whether it was a dream or if it was real life. But he said to himself " No it had to have been a dream because she would definitely NOT be sleeping right now with news like that." :)
I love signs. And they've been happening all week. Of course, there is a part of me that is scared to revisit that extremely sad place. Scared to feel angry, foolish and heartbroken again. But I am going to choose to believe that I'm pregnant. And hope that it all works out.
I just have this overwhelming feeling like everything is coming together. As if it's our time...
I have been having some physical symptoms, but of course they could mean many things as we all know. I do have a question for any of you that have gotten pregnant. I can't remember the first couple days of my first pregnancy (because I didnt know, so I wasnt paying attention). But did any of you have slight cramping on your side rather than in the middle? Sometimes it all over. Sometimes I feel it just on one side. Of course, the "believer" in me at the moment is thinking it's implantation. Hoping it's implantation and that baby is settling in for the long haul.
I'm hoping to catch up on all your blogs this weekend! I have been going to bed pretty early every night. I've been so tired. It's been 5 days without caffiene, and I'm doing really well without it actually. A little more tired, but that's ok.
Goodnight! Sweet dreams :)