I guess blogger has been down for the last two days. And apparently it got hungry and decided to eat/delete the last post I made on Thursday. For those of you who missed it, I got another BFN. Absolutely heartbroken about it. I'm taking the weekend to cry it out and get myself back together.
There's a new plan in place. We're not doing anymore treatments until I have surgery. Yup, I'm going to have a laporoscopy done. And I'm terrified of the surgery. We just can't take anymore heartbreak and we don't want to put anymore money and hope into treatments if there is something going on inside me. If there's something that can be fixed, I want to fix it. Right now I'm tenatively scheduled for surgery on June 24th because they are so booked. But Im going to try and see if I can get another dr to do it sooner. I really don't want to wait that long. After the surgery, when everything is checked and maybe "fixed" we want to do IVF. How will we afford it? Not sure just yet. But that is our plan. And it feels good to have a plan.
Thank you for all your support and kind comments! And thank you to my amazing friends and family IRL who go out of their way to show us love and support. We couldn't get through this without all you.