Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Not that girl...

I'm generally not very lucky. I'm not that girl in a movie where everything falls into place, JUST when she needs it to. I've seen more struggle than surprises. I'm usually the girl sitting back watching everyone else's dreams come true. After this third IUI, I was feeling like I could maybe be "that girl" this time. That maybe, just maybe, by some miracle I would get my BFP and live happily ever after. Ride off into the sunset with my husband and baby. But like I said, I'm not that girl...

The cramps went away. Sort of. This morning I didn't have any and this afternoon I thought I was feeling some "light" cramping but it could all be in my head. No spotting yet. I made about a gazillion trips to the bathroom at work checking for spotting. I'm hoping I don't wake up tomorrow with my period.

I'm really trying to hold it together, so I can get through this beta tomorrow. It's pretty awful walking in there knowing what the outcome will be. Might be, I guess. Of course the positive part of me, is thinking that maybe it's just my uterus expanding making room for the baby! And the negative part of me is saying "Give it up girl."

We'll see. But I'm expecting the same old crash and burn scene. :(

Any last minute prayers are very much appreciated :)

Please, God, gimme a BFP.

17 comments:

Carlia said...

i'll be crossing everything and praying that you get your BFP! good luck tomorrow. i'll definitely be thinking of you and sending you positive thoughts.

Josey said...

Totally praying that you'll get a BFP tomorrow!! Hang in there Sarah.

Baby Hopes said...

Sending prayers!!!

kkasun said...

Thinking of you and sending positive vibes your way!!!
Good luck!

Lauren said...

Can't stop thinking of you, so glad tomorrow is almost here. Praying always <3

Moe said...

here's hoping you get some FABULOUS news tomorrow. please let us know asap.

Liz said...

Thinking of you and hoping to see an update entitled BFP tomorrow. The 2WW is such a mind F*$%. Sorry for the profanity, but it's SO true!! Hoping to hear great things tomorrow.

TeeJay said...

I'm really hoping that tomorrow is your turn to be that girl. Fingers crossed.

Faith said...

I am thinking and praying hard for you!! My fingers, toes and everything else are crossed:)!

Jes G said...

praying for you Sarah!! keep your head up!
xoxo

RMCarter said...

Saying prayers. I want this for you so badly!!!

Ashley said...

I am totally praying for you and a BFP tomorrow!! I went through 3 IUI's also and i know how hard it can be emotionally!

Good Timing said...

It sure is a bumpy road, but hang in there. You just never know what can happen! Thinking of you and sending good thoughts your way!

beauty and insanity wrapped into one said...

thinking about you and praying.. lots!!! i hope you get a BFP tomorrow.. hold tight and stay positive... i never thought "id be that girl".... and here i am... living a life i never thought i'd have.. so hang tight!!! keep us all posted!!!! xoxo

Amanda said...

Good luck today!! I swore I was about to get my period right before my first BFP...was the same as you..checking 25 times a day for spotting, but it never came. I really think this is IT for you!!

cgd said...

much love and luck to you, hang in there....

Jenny said...

Thinking of you today. ((HUGS))