Tuesday, May 10, 2011

You.

I just want to thank all of you out there for your sweet and supportive comments. I signed onto blogger quick this morning, because I knew I needed a little jolt of hope and support from you girls. And at 7 am, I was getting teary eyed reading your comments. Whenever I talk about this blog community and I happen to mention you all in conversation, I don't say "This girl from my blog..." I say " My friend from my blog..." I honestly consider you all friends. :) So thank you for picking me up, when I'm down for the count. And I apologize for being a total slacker with commenting lately. It's selfish and I hate when I get behind! But once this week is behind me I hope to catch up :)

So, I awoke this morning feeling a little better. A little hopeful again. Matt and I had long emotional talk last night. Both of us in tears. And I just have to say that I am the luckiest girl in the world. I'm really blessed with an amazing husband...

But then I got to work. And that's when the cramping started. And continued all day long. Painful cramping, like AF is about to return with a fury :( No bleeding or spotting yet. But the cramps were all day. I know this could mean other things. But I'm sure the spotting is just being held off with progesterone.

I HOPE I'm totally wrong. I HOPE that I'll get a shocking BFP on Thursday. And I HOPE these cramps go away. Not giving up yet.

And to make today extra fun, one of the moms from my class said today "So how was your mother's day? Oh I mean not you." As she pointed to me and giggled. Now, she knows I don't have kids and she doesn't know about my IF. But, WTH???!! It was so rude. Just what I needed too. Some lady pointing out "HA-HA! You're not a mommy!!"

Screw you, crazy lady.

Thanks again, everybody, for fillin up my hope jar :)

11 comments:

Baby Hopes said...

Seriously?!?!? Unbelievable comment from the crazy lady. I'm so sorry. :( What a brat. Glad you're feeling more hopeful! Sending you much love!

Moe said...

Oh my freaking God..... I'm sitting here totally furious right now. I can't believe that mother said that to you. Honestly, whether she knows about your IF or not...that's the rudest thing to say to a woman. I could go off on the hugest rant right now...but I'm pretty sure you have all those thoughts in your head right now. What a B.... I'm sorry someone was so inconsiderate (even if they didn't mean to be).

I'm glad you're feeling a little bit better today. Still praying for you. *Huge hugs*

Sailor's Sweetheart said...

Wow! I wouldn't have been able to hold back on a comment like that. That was rude whether you were trying to have a baby or not! Sorry she said that to you. :( Glad your feeling better!

Jillington, a.k.a. the Polack said...

Psht, I would have been tempted to say something rude back to her. Also, true story, and I hope this doesn't make you feel bad, but when I was trying to get pregnant this time around Danny and I were in court dealing with divorce/custody crap. I was having a shit day and was feeling super cramps the whole day. I cried in the hall way and told him we needed to go home, like, asap because I was cramping hard core, was feeling like I was bleeding (I know, TMI) and was wearing a skirt and had no tampon. When I got home I was surprised to find that I wasn't bleeding at all. Turns out, pregnant. Keep positive!

amiracle4us said...

It's amazing how clueless women could be. I know find myself not asking people if they have kids and completely don't say happy mothers day to those I dont know for fear it may upset them if they are in the same situation.
I can't wait till thursday when you get your good news :)

Jenny said...

WHAT?!!?!? That woman is so ruuude! I absolutely would have said something...people need to be put in their place! I purposely would make them feel uncomfortable...ugh...I'm so sorry you had to deal with her.

I TOTALLY call my fellow bloggers my "online friends" when i talk about you to DH...most of them know me better than some of my friends IRL.

Glad to hear you are feeling a little happier today! **hugs**

Amber said...

We've all had incredibly tough times as infertile women and this community is what gets us through. We're all the same when it comes down to it, I just wish we all lived in the same place so we could all hang out! :)

Jen Has A Pen said...

I love ignorance. Gives me something to talk (bad) about later. :-) So sorry you experienced that.

But, I'm glad you and your husband had one of those "same page" talks. I think everyone going through IF needs to regroup and have another "meeting" with their significant others every couple months. IF changes my feelings so regularly that I need to send my husband an agenda just to keep up. :-)

cgd said...

ouch, that mother's day comment particularly stings. So sorry for that. I am still hoping for you!!! Beta is tomorrow? Will be stalking your blog for updated.
hang in there...

Amanda said...

Thinking of you..hoping those cramps went away (and the co-worker too for that matter!) xo

L said...

Ugh! What is wrong with some people? Don't they have a filter? Still praying for you that everything works out tomorrow :)