Friday, July 15, 2011

No Unread Emails and PTSD


(Even miracles take a little time)


I have to confess that I've been checking my email. A lot.

Sure I love getting emails from friends and family, but after I either save them or delete them my mailbox goes back to "No Unread Emails." And I my mailbox gets lonely. Especially when I check it almost hourly to see if there is an email regarding the "seeds." Even though I've tried to put the seeds out of my mind, they still pop up a few times a day. We think they received our letter earlier this week. And in my fantasy world, I guess I was hoping I would get an email or call right away saying, " Yes, we want to meet you asap!" But ummm, that's unrealistic. So I just continue to check my email (OCD-like) in hopes that one of these days that email will arrive...

My retrieval/transfer socks have arrived!! I love them!! And I had a couple extra pairs that I was going to do a giveaway with! But two blog friends of mine, were in need as their first IVF's are in-progress or almost in-progress :)

I was having some cramping today. I panicked a little because I'm ordering my Lupron on Monday and it will arrive on Tuesday. I'm afraid of starting AF early and being short on meds. But I think it will all work out ok...

You know what's really bothering me? How the media like Entertainment Tonight are already stalking Princess Kate for a baby bump! Geez! I just want to scream "Leave her alone!" at the TV. I mean, what if they have IF troubles in the future? Then what? Off with her head?! I just feel bad for the girl...

So glad it's Friday. And I'm so glad I don't smell like a skunk...

Today at work we were outside with the kids. Playing with sidewalk chalk and matchbox cars. We were sitting right outside our playground leaning against a fence. When all of the sudden one of our co-workers stops mid-sentence, "There's a SKUNK!" I quick look back over my shoulder and see a blur of black and white, and I think I may have said " Holy Shit!!" (while covering the children's ears of course) as we grabbed the kids and hightailed it out of there! We were about a foot away from a baby skunk! And afterwards we laughed so hard about it that our faces hurt and tears were coming down. We are SO lucky we didn't get sprayed. That would have been awful. We were all a little shaky and weirded out after the excitement of the "skunk attack." I think we were all struggling with a little bit of PTSD...

Post Traumatic Skunk Disorder :)








8 comments:

Honeybee said...

thanks for the comment Sarah! you're right, it is inspiring to see other women who have gone through this come out on the other side! :)

those socks are super cute!

and dang, that's good ya'll didn't get skunked! :) haha

cgd said...

love the socks :) adorable. wishing you so much luck with this cycle
P.S. hoping you do get some news on the seeds either way so you can move forward.

Diana said...

Adorable socks Sarah... I love reading ur blog as well. I know in my heart u will get ur baby soon!! Hoping u get an email soon or just a lead to making the best choice! I'm thinking of ya! :) hope u have a fabulous weekend.

Hahaha PTSD!! Love it :)

Emily said...

Take your obsessive email checking, turn it into phone checking, and you have me. Yesterday I actually carried my phone in my hand, with the ringer on loud ALL DAY.

And I've been anxiously awaiting an updated on the seeds just as much as you are! We are all rooting for you!

Good Timing said...

The socks are so very cute and I am sure they will bring you good luck!! :) Keep us posted about the seeds, it still sounds like an interesting possibility to me! Hope you get your meds on time! We've had a mail strike here and are still getting things postdated from the beginning of June!

Faith said...

I know what you mean about the email - I did that when we were in the adoption process. I CONSTANTLY looked for emails from our social worker, lol! It was definitely obsessive! I hope you get some news soon!

Lol, love the PTSD story. I have PTCD - post traumatic cockroach disorder - since moving into this dang house! They are under control now, but I still get freaked out looking for them everywhere! So, I know that nervous, shaky feeling well:).

And LOVE the socks:).

Marissa said...

Sunks ARE traumatic! Glad you survived unscathed and unscented.

I'm sorry there's no word on the "seeds". It would be nice to know, one way or the other, how they felt about your letter.

Jenny said...

my hubby and I got skunked once, it was NOT fun at all!

I agree with you about the media and Kate. From the day of the wedding all I hear is "I'm sure they will start a family very soon"...all I can think is I can't imagine the pressure on this poor girl to procreate...and if either of them has any fertility issues? well I just hope for their sake they don't because I can't imagine how hard it would be to go through everything we have with the whole world watching.