Confession Sunday

I'm confessing to two things. I P.O.A.S today and yesterday I bought something for a baby that we don't have. Both, pretty silly of me. But whatever. Friday morning at work I was feeling extremely nauseous. Like the kind of nausea, that makes you go stare at the toilet for ten minutes, knowing that any minute now you could lose your breakfast. It was awful. I ended up not getting sick, but the nausea lasted for about an hour. I had been having either early preggo symptoms or pms, the last week. But the nausea Friday, made me want to POAS, just in case. "Just in case" is a big thing with me lately. I feel like last time, too much time went by without me knowing I was actually pregnant. And I was in need of progesterone help. So, now "just in case" I test a lot. So that I can get the help I need, earlier, before it's too late. Also, my asthma has been bothering me this week. I wanted to do a neb treatment, but "just in case" needed to POAS, to make sure I wasn't pregnant. The day before our miscarriage, I had seen an asthma specialist and was given two neb treatments back to back. The following day, I miscarried. I remember telling the doctor that I was really afraid to take the meds, because I was afraid I would lose the baby. So, now I POAS more often, because if there's anything I can do to help prevent a miscarriage, I'm gonna do it. I know that I can't pinpoint what actually happened and why I miscarried. But now I'm just more aware of what I'm putting in my body. Since, I got a BFN (big fat negative) I will give myself a neb treatment so I can breathe, drink coffee and maybe drink some Mountain Dew. All at the same time. Just because I can.

I went out to lunch and shopping with my mom yesterday. We had a good time, it was nice to catch up and do what we do best. Laugh, shop, eat. I bought myself a nice Mets jacket at Marshall's. I love it and can't wait until the new season starts. I also came across the cutest, tiniest Mets hat I have ever seen. It was $1.99 and there was no way I was leaving the store without it. I stood there for a minute trying to justify why I should buy the baby Mets hat. "Do I know anyone that is a Mets fan with a baby? No." "Do I want this for our future baby boy or girl to wear? Yes." A little silly I know, but I just had to have it. I'll put it away in our baby box, that holds our u/s pic, cards, and the Mets bib I surprised my honey with when I told him we were preggo. Sigh.

I'm DVR'ing Brothers & Sisters and G & B tonight. I'm not sure which one I want to watch. Or how either one will make me feel. I came across this link online, it said "Celebrity Spawn: Tracking celeb parents and their famous kids." It was a link to Celebrity Babies Superfan Blog. Yikes. It was set up just like a normal blog, but each entry was about different celebs who just had babies or celebs that are preggo. I'd rather read the IF blogs written by amazing women, anyday. ANYDAY! :)

A new week is upon us! I hope it's a good one and I hope it goes by quickly. I'm in love with Saturday. And WOW, it's March already?

"Looking at the hand of the time we've been given here
This is all we got and we gotta start thinkin' it
Every second counts on a clock that's tickin'
Gotta live like we're dying
We only got 86 400 seconds in a day
To turn it all around or throw it all away
We gotta tell 'em that we love 'em while we got the chance to say,
Gotta live like we're dying." ~Kris Allen