Monday, January 31, 2011

Pity Party...Table for Two...

Day 43. And still nothing. I called the RE today and set up an appointment for Friday. They are going to do blood work and an ultrasound.

I got a call from my GI doctor with the results of my colonoscopy. And it turns out I have inmflammatory colitis :( I have to take this drug called Lialda, twice a day. I have a follow up appt with them next week and hopefully I will find out a few things. Like if I'll have to take this medicine forever? Or why is it that my meds cost $50!!! :( It may not sound like a lot to some people, but for us it is. I was so sad tonight about this whole thing because, that's another 50 bucks a month that we could be putting towards another injectible cycle or IVF, for that matter. I guess at least I am getting treated for this issue now, but it's just a real bummer.

I think I have the stomach bug. It's going around my work like a tornado and we only had two kids in our class today! They are all wiped out with the bug.

The snowstorm from hell is on its way.

And as I was typing this I had an asthma attack and had to use my puffer like 4 times. Which hasn't happened in a long time. Last year I was using my neb machine about twice a day. Been better this year. But the attack I had just now, sucked. Felt like an elephant was on my chest. I took my first Lialda pill tonight, and it's probably some crazy rare side effect I'm experiencing. I had hubby running to the side effect sheet to see if I was dying....

We are just in the dumps tonight. Sometimes we feel like we can't catch a break. We know things will start looking up, but it's really hard right now. Thank God for my husband though, who keeps me going...

I'm sorry for the downer post tonight :(

I need to get my positive energy back!

Tomorrow is a new day...

6 comments:

Faith said...

So sorry hun:(. Hang in there, I'll be thinking of you.....

Anonymous said...

I take Lialda, as well and it costs me $60 now...it sucks!

Allison

Anonymous said...

My mom was on Lialda and within a few months she was able to go off of it because she changed her diet and it had gotten way better. So it will only get better from here. Keep your head up and stick close to your hubby its always nice to be loved when you are feeling down. Try to stay positive <3 And Yes tomorrow is a new day :) Have a good night!

Christa said...

I hope things get better soon - good luck with the storm, we're in for a doozy!

Jenny said...

my MIL has suffered with ulcerative colitis most of her adult life. I see what she goes through and I'm so sorry to hear you are suffering from it. Is there a generic version of the med you could take? Might save you some money.

It's crazy how many people are sick. It really makes me want to hide away in my house until spring!

Hope you're feeling better. When I feel down and blah I just like to veg out, take a bath and shut out the world for a day or two.

Lonelily said...

I don't blame you for getting frustrated, and I give you sooo much credit for staying positive in the midst of what seem like endless drawbacks. You are a strong person...remember that! And it WILL happen!