Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Tired, dirty, grumpy...

I'm tired tonight. And dirty. And a little grumpy.

The first day back to work after a busy holiday weekend always has me feeling extra tired. I came home tonight to no water, too. There was a water main break in the town we live in. Fantastic. I always take a shower when I come home from work. It relaxes me, wakes me up a little and I like to think it washes away any kid viruses that may have been planted on me during the day :)

Today is CD 20. I've been using OPKs but nothing positive yet. Tomorrow I am calling the RE's office to set up our plan for IVF. And to get my meds figured out. I think I'm still going to need to order some, but nothing too crazy. Maybe some lupron and a trigger and needles. We'll see. I have some lupron left, about half a bottle. Not sure if that will be enough.

I finished my letter last night to the mother of the seeds. Our family friend helped me edit it, because I think I got a little too emotional with my words. So the edited version is much better I think. We'll see what happens.

If you've been following my "seeds" story, you already know how I've been getting signs from everywhere. Today...at work....volunteers...twin teenage girls...with reddish hair...

Yup.

Trying to keep these possible adoption thoughts on the back burner. But it's hard when signs spill all over the stove!!!

One way or another, by way of adoption or IVF, I know in my heart we will have our family. The children we want so badly.

And then I'll be tired, dirty...

happy.


7 comments:

Jill Dorsey || Made with Moxie said...

I'm pretty tired, dirty, but happy is a parent standard. Keep up the good work!

Marissa said...

I am so excited for you! One way or another. :)

P.S. Now I'm dying to know if you or your husband have red hair or if it runs in the family on either side. Because twins come in lots of ways!

Faith said...

Sorry to hear about the water and feeling so tired! Tomorrow is another, and hopefully better, day. Those signs just keep comin'! It's crazy! And yes, tired and dirty are parent standards, as is happy...although grumpy also comes into play some days, lol!

Good Timing said...

Loving tired, dirty and happy! :) I can't believe how many signs you have been getting lately?! Wow! I am excited to see how this will all pan out. So many good things going on for you right now! (Minus the water issues, lol!)

L said...

I'm so happy that you're able to begin IVF very soon. I can't wait to follow you on your journey to your family - whether it's through IVF, adoption, or both :)

A m a n d a said...

Aww, I love the ending of this post :)

It must have been such a relief to finish that letter. You've done all you can. The rest is up to the universe. I'll be keeping you in my prayers Sarah!

Marissa said...

Hee hee, I know about the "seeds" having red hair. I just was curious if you could be getting signs for a different set of twins from Bravelle. ;) Smores for everyone!