Tuesday, September 13, 2011

God gave me cookies.

So after our bittersweet appointment this morning, I went to Target (like I had mentioned) to force myself to buy a onesie. Which I did. I also roamed the junk food aisle looking for something worthy of a little bit of emotional-overeating. To my surprise, there in the cookie aisle was a gift from God. You know those Girl Scout Samoa cookies? The ones you can only get once a year, during a month long window of opportunity for like $5.00 a box? Overpriced and not very many cookies in the box, but those Girl Scout's know their way to our hearts. Anyways, these Samoa cookies are so good! And today, in the Target cookie aisle I saw the brother to the Girl Scout Samoa cookies! Keebler came out with it's own version called "Coconut Dream." They are really good! Taste the same as the Samoas! Thank you God for giving me cookies when I needed them most....

Have I mentioned that I hate cramps, twinges, symptoms in general! They make me crazy. And all my "symptoms" seem to be exaggerated after I get not so great news. All I can think about is this hematoma attacking my baby. But I'm trying really hard to trying to visualize it shrinking and our Miracle baby kicking it's ass. Go back to Hematoma Hell, you are not wanted in my babymaker.

I wish I had a recording of the baby's heartbeat today, I would play it every five minutes....

Thanks for all your supportive comments/emails. Helps a lot :)

6 comments:

A m a n d a said...

First of all, I was so sorry to read your previous post. Even though you still have a healthy one in there, it is still a loss that deserves to be acknowledged. I'm so sorry.

Hmmm I don't think we get that kind in Canada. I know my GG cookies, and I've never seen them!

Keep up the positive visualizing. Doc says all is ok so that what I'm going to believe!

manymanymoons said...

Did you go to the Target on Wolf Road? I am LOVING that there is a Starbucks in there now. I'm trying to run all of my errands there now. :) Thank you cookie Gods!!

Gaffney said...

Heartbreaking to hear the sad news. Such a mixture of emotions. We will continue to pray for your growing family. You are braver than I. Just this trimester I inched my way into a Babies R Us with La La by my side. Tomorrow E starts Daisy GS so I guess I know who is going to be out ordering me for Samoas in the spring. Much love to you!

Diana said...

thinking of you... thank goodness for cookies huh? or cake! =)

thank u for ur well wishes on my blog... its a very exciting yet scary thing. but overall.. a true blessing! =)

Jenny said...

hey...just wanted to let you know my package arrived today. You are so sweet! I was so surprised to see that little outfit in there. It's totally adorable and I will be posting a pic of A in it on my blog asap.
Hope you're doing well and resting as much as you can :)

Baby Hopes said...

I'm so sorry about your loss. :( What a roller coaster of emotions. Sending lots of love, thoughts, and prayers for you and your little one!