I feel like I'm in limbo. I just want to feel as if I'm moving forward in this IF process, and not just stitting still. But unfortunately, it includes quite a bit of waiting. My appointment with the OB/GYN is on friday. I'm having my annual but we are also going to discuss the next "move." I'm trying to not put too much pressure on this one visit or expect too much. Although, I'm very concerned about moving backwards. I know that my honey is going to need an SA. But basically I am hoping they will be a little more aggressive with treatment, than the military doctors in Hawaii were. I don't want to do another year of fertility drugs and monitoring, I want to get to the bottom of why it's so hard for me to get pregnant and stay pregnant. I want some answers. And that's why I'm making a list and checking it twice. I'm writing down all the questions I have, so that on Friday I'm not like a deer in headlights. I'm wondering if they will refer me to an RE? Which I would be fine with. I feel like the military doctors just pumped me full of drugs and hoped for the best. I think I have PCOS, but have never been diagnosed "officially." I guess for the past two years I have been playing doctor myself. Trying to figure out why this is happening, or not happening should I say. For once, I'd like a professional to help me out and take charge of my infertility for me. I'm hoping AF will leave town before Friday, because I'm just not a fan of bringing her along with me to the appointment! If she's still hanging out, I'm going to have to try and reschedule for a few days later.
I've been reading about that relaxation program, Circle + Bloom. Has anyone used it? Does it help? I'm thinking about ordering it. I need something, besides pinot grigio to relax me :)
p.s.-I started watching that Sperm show I was talking about in my last post. Turned it off within five minutes. Way too weird. They had like hundreds of men pretending to be sperm and climbing mountains and swimming streams. Um, no. Remote please.
Hope everyone has a great start to their week...