I'm sure my husband wouldn't be too happy if I were to broadcast the details of our financial issues on here. But basically, that's what's happening. It feels like no matter what we do, we can't catch up. It's just overwhelming. Any day now, would be the perfect time to win the lottery or have Ellen DeGeneres call us to tell us the "swaggin' wagon" is headed our way. I know things will work out. But at the moment, things seem very dark.
Plus, my mood today is partly due to the fact that I felt so sick all throughout the night and into today. I either had a stomach bug or ate something bad. I just had a really horrible stomach ache and just felt "sick" all over. I'm pretty sure the baby is okay, I wasn't doubled over in pain or anything. Just had a bad stomach ache that felt "virusy." Feeling a little bit better now, but still "off."
I've decided that it should be illegal to have to wait weeks and weeks between OB appts. I hate waiting. I hate wondering. I watched "Sister Wives" last night and they showed a scene where Cody and Robyn were having some pregnancy issues and the mid wife went to use the doppler on her and couldn't find a heartbeat. And that's how they ended the show! Leaving everyone anxious and wondering what happened. And making me panic that they won't be able to find a heartbeat at our next appt. I didn't want to try my home doppler again until this appt, where I could learn how to use it correctly. I think if I attempt to try it again before then, and can't hear anything, it will just freak me out.
I also had to tell my soon to be sis in law that I have to back out on being a bridesmaid. Which I feel really bad about. I was super excited to be in the wedding but after thinking a lot about it, I just didn't think it would be a good idea to commit to it. The biggest reason, being money. I just don't think I'll be able to afford all the fabulous things that come with being in a wedding. The dress/hair/make-up/events, etc. And the wedding is on St. Patrick's Day and by then I will be 8 months pregnant. I have this fear of going early too, and I wouldn't want to mess up all her plans. I'm bummed about it, but I know it's the right thing for everyone.
Thanks for all your responses to my blog background questions! I've pretty much given up. Everything that was suggested I had already tried and I have just come to accept that Blogger hates me. Some people say all they can see is white and some people say they can see the cute fall background. I think it has to do with the browser people are using. So apologize my background may be jacked up for awhile. Somehow I managed to get it where I can see the fall background, but the text is pretty small.
Ok, I'm done venting for the day. Thanks for lending an