Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Prayers and encouragement needed please!

Ok, I'm going to tell you what went down today. And then I'm going to ask you to pray for us please. And then I am going to think nothing but positive thoughts for the next four days...

Are you ready? Ok.

I went to my second beta this morning.  But before I entered the room I heard another nurse yell out " Wait a minute, I need to hug this girl!" Guess who it was? You know the nurse I was telling you about months ago? Well, it was her. And it was really sweet. The other nurse took my blood quick and I was out the door...

I waited around all day. No one called. Finally at 3:30 I went and checked the lab results online. To my absolute horror, the beta didn't double. It was 224.5. The nurse said this morning they at least like to see it go up two thirds, that it didnt have to double. And so, if you do the math, our second beta didn't quite make it to that point. I'm not going to lie. I'm absolutely so scared and crushed. The nurse didn't seem concerned though because I was almost to "two thirds" and they still went ahead scheduled my first u/s and next beta for Monday. So technically our beta #'s only went up 81.9 "points." I am happy that it went UP, but still extremely worried. My nurse friend who used to work at a fertility clinic, talked me off the ledge. She said it could be that
more than one started out and then stopped growing, maybe only leaving one. But she did say it was so important that I remain positive and hopeful and happy for the next few days. So, girls, that is exactly what I'm going to do! I'm going to repeat over and over again....

"I am pregnant. I will stay pregnant. We will have at least one healthy baby at the end of this."

Any prayers or encouraging words you have to spare are GREATLY appreciated :)

PS-I forgot to mention that my friend at work cut into a red pepper and guess what was inside? Two baby peppers. We both thought it was a "sign." Please God, please let it be a sign....

21 comments:

Ruth said...

((HUGS)) I know it's gotta be so scary when you don't know exactly what's going on. I was thinking the same thing as your friend- that since it was so high on the first beta, maybe 2 started to implant and now there is 1. I guess Monday is a big day for both of us. Praying for you!

Jamie said...

Praying, praying, praying for your sticky bean(s). I just feel that you will get at least one beautiful little one out of all of this!!

Chon said...

First of all get off the ledge and stay away from google.

Second of all huge hugs. As my sister said to me if you weren't doing IVF all you would have done is POAS saw the magic line and then had one blood test to confirm you were pregnant. Right, and you are still pregnant. The beta says so. hugs hugs hugs

Liz said...

Thinking of you and hoping for the best. Enjoy as much of being pregnant as you can, you deserve it!!

Moe said...

oh hunni! I will be praying. :) I know that's not the extra stress/fear you need right now... i have VERY POSITIVE FEELINGS that this is going to be okay!! :)

*hugs*

Carpenters said...

Sarah, I am praying!!! Hugs and tons of support going to you!!

Jenny said...

Before I even got to the part about you being talked off a ledge I was thinking to myself exactly that...perhaps one of them stopped progressing (this is a fairly common occurance with multiple emtryos and causes a lot of stress for the mommies)...it still went up and that's all that you need to focus on hun!

((((BIG HUGS))))

Jennifer said...

I'm with you...the pepper is for sure a sign! Praying for you! I feel good about this my friend! Hugs!

Marissa said...

I am so sorry. :( That's the whole reason I didn't get a 2nd beta (they're optional at my clinic if the first one is over 100)--I have been in beta limbo and it is NOT FUN.

But your friend is very correct. (Especially considering you transferred 3, so chances of multiples is higher.)

I will hold you in my thoughts. When is your ultrasound??

P.S. Go POAS! It's fun to do when you're pregnant!!

Mommy ToBe (I hope) said...

Sending you positive thoughts and prayers!!!

Faith said...

Ok, well I have a great story for you that ends in my beautiful, gorgeous, wonderful, perfect 6 month old daughter. My betas did not even CLOSE to double with her at first. It went from 514 to 547. I just KNEW I was losing her...it would have been my third loss, and I was resigned. Just wanted to get it over with honestly. And guess what? It started doubling after that, all was well, and she is an angel. No one knows why it happens, but the numbers sometimes just do that. My RE was not at all worried when it happened, crazy man! But, alas, he was right. I hope this story brings you lots of hope. Because my Addison is my heart (along with her brother). And your baby(ies) will be too:). So stay positive - numbers are just that, numbers - not fate! Hang in there!

Good Timing said...

Just wanted you to k now aim thinking of you and praying for you!! Betas are not an exact science and are different for ecerya pregnancy. Keep the faith, keep hoping and being positive! We are all cheering you on!!! Xoxo

JM said...

Lots and lots of love and luck getting through until Monday- I can't imagine how tough it must be!

Babydreams2011 said...

Definitely back away from the ledge! First off, they SHOULD double within 48-72 hrs and I checked yours and you are at 73hrs so STAY CALM.. I don't think you should worry unless there is something to worry about! You know that old saying "don't borrow trouble" well don't. deep breaths and relax! We are all praying for you and that lil bean! Chin up and push forward! xoxo HUGS!

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Liz said...

I will continute to pray for you and your family! I love all of these positive comments.

Josey said...

Okay, a few things. I agree with BabyDreams - they are supposed to go up within 48-72 hours, so try not to worry that you're at a 73 hours doubling time. My RE said the same thing about only wanting a 2/3 increase, and you are SO CLOSE to that number - and as we all know, there are a million variables that could have affected your numbers just slightly. Finally, there is the chance of another embryo failing to progress.

I'm hoping and praying for you!!

Amber said...

Well, let me tell you what happened with me. My 1st pregnancy that ended in m/c- my betas actually tripled every time and were much higher than the 2nd pregnancy. My 2nd pregnancy- the betas were lower at the same point in pregnancy and never doubled. Sometimes they didn't even go up 2/3rds. SOOOO, I say poo-poo on betas. They're only meant to scare you.

Hang in there!!!

Gaffney said...

Thinking and wishing only great things for you tonight and every minute until you get to hold your miracle(s). Then I will pray for your sanity and a money tree to sprout in your yard! All the best and kudos to the formerly mean nurse for brightening your day with a hug when you needed it.

ADSchill said...

Thinking of you and praying for your pregnancy. My second beta went up about 80% I think, it didn't double. I hope that makes you feel a little better.

It will be okay!

Babydreams2011 said...

That is a FANTASTIC Beta!! Your doubling time is 37.9 HOURS! Very VERY Good! YAY!! I have been checking all day waiting on an update! SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!