The Hair Tie

Someone please tell me they had moderate-heavy cramping days after transfer or early on in their pregnancy??? I've heard from a lot of people who said they had cramping early on, but I'm not sure where I should gage the discomfort level of the cramps. Someone else's cramps early on could be wimpy compared to what I'm feeling or vice versa. So it's hard to feel comforted. Although, I do thank you all for trying :) During my first pregnancy when we didn't even know we were pregnant, I remember having cramps and thinking "Ok when am I going to start bleeding?!" But I can't remember if they felt like the ones I'm having now.

I was pretty uncomfortable all day. Yesterday the cramping wasn't so bad. It was light and on and off. Today, it was was a constant uncomfortable-ness. And even the Tylenol wasn't really helping. I am SO scared that it's my period :( But I just keep praying. All. Day. Long. Today I was feeling extra bloated too and I did something that I never thought I'd do "in public." I have gained some IVF weight, so my clothes are a little snuggier. Especially my jeans. Just two hours into my work day I couldn't stand the discomfort of the tightness of my waistband, so what did I do? The old hair tie trick. Which is pretty much disgusting, but it had to be done. I unbuttoned my jeans and looped a stretchy hair tie through the loop and over the button. Go ahead, laugh if you need to :) I had a long shirt on so you couldn't tell the difference. But I knew, and I was disgusted to think I was walking around work with my pants unbuttoned! When I find out I'm preggs on Monday (positive thinking!), I'm immediately going to start wearing maternity pants and that's that....

I do have some moments when I think I am "fo sho" pregnant :) And then other times..............................................not so much :( THIS 2WW IS AWFUL. It would just be even more devastating for me to get my period before beta day. Not sure why, because a no is a no. But for some reason I just want to make it through the weekend.

A friend of mine let me borrow the book "Heaven is for Real." I started reading it today and one sentence really stood out to me. I was praying last night and then I thought to myself "Does He really hear us all?" And a sentence from the book that jumped at me said something like " God hears all our prayers."

Thank you God for (hopefully) hearing (and answering) my prayers. Oh and thanks for hair ties and comfy leggings. Which is what I'll be wearing for the rest of the week :)